Random thoughts....

It's been a long couple of weeks.

Death in the family.
Airport Sleepover.
Softball Game.
Realizations - on oh so many things.
              sports and playing
               men ... where the hell are they?
                family
                living situation  - has to change
Insurance - glad I have it but tired of talking about it.


So much to talk about I think I'm just going to type and see what comes out.

My Uncle died last week.

He was a great man and he touched a lot of people. That was oh so evident by the outpouring of support for our family and more specifically his wife. My mom and I flew up and were planning on getting in quick and getting out quick. You know, stay above the craziness that comes when you get together with family who you only see at these awful occasions.  You know nothing went according to plan on that one right?!  Mom and I had all kinds of fun getting back from Chicago... #airportsleepover.

I played in my first softball game since wrist surgery. Felt okay but not great. Still going to play though. Wondering if it was painful due to the therapy on Tuesday...bad choice on my part. My team is a group of peeps from work and it's a lot of fun. Going to continue to be a good one I can tell. If i can keep my wrist in check, this could be good fun and some occasional exercise. I'm waiting on kickball. Never playing in a league before but I think I should be good at it.  i play/played soccer for goodnes sake!  We'll have to see when all of that goes down.

What's next on my outline of thoughts? Lol.

Oh yeah... playing sports. I think I would like to stop playing soccer. That time of my life has passed I think andI would just like to work out and take up a new hobby. I will always be passionate about watching and even playing it.  I think I'm well beyond wanting to play, I will miss it but I think I should be fine. New things are on the horizon... all across the board.


Speaking of new... the next stop on the mental anguish circuit.
Men - still seems to get my heart in crazy situations.  Knight in shining armor...not looking for him... normal guy with a heart, a good job, and good communication skills...DEFINITELY looking for him.
Moved on officially from someone or something that was not a healthy situation. Feels good to be free of that emotional baggage...at least I think  I'm free of it.  It's amazing how i can get my heart tangled up so badly in such a short time.  Hmph.... working on not worrying about all of this. Hate to be part of a cliche but dang it i'm not getting any younger!

I love my family and hope to have one of my own someday but i also need a bit more space. I enjoyed my time away on the ship and the independence that i had.   Hope to move into my own space by the end of this year. Am I behind the 8 ball, yes. I think I have allowed many. many things to get in my way  and I'm done with that now. Working on my loans and any outstanding credit that I have to get that credit score up and get a move on! Yeah buddy! I don't need a lot... a small space to call my own and relax.  Could be lookin' up.

I've re-lived the wreck again for the insurance companies and now I'm trying to put it behind me.

Well, that's enough of my spiel and I'm out!

#dosomethinggood

-ash