Bless Your Heart

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Sooooo...just got back from Boca Raton with the soccer people. As I said previously, it was a great decisionl Hated to miss the wedding but it was completely worth going. Met some great new family and picked up a ton of new facebook and twitter contacts (i.e. my 96 girls).  At some point during the week, romance came up...they are 15 and 16 so put that into perspective, lol.  It was one of the funniest conversations I have had in ages. What constitues "hanging out" and what constitutes "dating". You should be able to tell already that the convo was a good one. As almost always happens... they were nosy and all about my relationship status and who I am/was dating and all that. I obliged and shared information with them which they ate up.Throughout last week, they became my facebook friends and started to follow me on Twitter (Texash_1981).  They facebook stalked me for a few days before we had this conversation. They were in my photos and all that goodness.   While out for ice cream, they were having a hilarious discussion about the guys they were talking to or almost alking to. Then at some point they became interested in my situation. . According to them, my current friend is "hot" ... one of them told me "GIRL ... you did good!"

 I have a smile on my face as I type this. One: because they are right on both accounts... I did good and he is hot. Two: it was just fun to laugh with them and see life through the eyes of a 15 year old for a minute. THEN we got to talking about where everyone was from and we started Google earthing houses and all that. I had 1 from Oklahoma, 2 from Texas, 1 from South Carolina, 4 from FLorida, a few from Georgia and  a ton from North Carolina. The NC and GA girls I would say were the most talkative so we started talking about where they lived and WHERE exactly some of those cities were. I was asked if I knew anyone in NC after I told them I knew people in Georgia and all of the other girls states. I told them I knew a few from Charlotte, and Raleigh area. WHERE!!!? Was the excited  moment I got so I asked if any had heard of Eden and and Apex. "OF COURSE!!" ... i told them who I knew in Apex and Eden...they wanted to see pics of those people since they were ship friends and there had been a bit of envy about my ship life and travels, lol.  My Apex friend who used to be known here as Mr. Disney looked way guido according to my girls... I'd have to agree at this point but ehhh who cares... they also put that whole time od my life into perspective very quickly. They asked why we broke up and I told them he said "the distance" and his dad wasn't a fan of my being black... "THAT'S STUPID! they said and also went on to say "We aren't all like that Ashley!". This coming from 15 year olds... I love it! Now I have the best of both worlds... a good guy who seems to REALLY care about me and can handle all this blackness (sorry that had to go in ...it makes me laugh... I'm only chocolate on the outside, lol.) AND I am getting ready to move to bigger and better things!

Hopefully I will get to see these girls again and will have more funny conversations about life, love and the pursuit of happiness according to the minds of 15/16 year olds.

Their week didn't go as expected on the soccer field...they were 0-3 but they did score some goals and meet a ton of new friends. Hopefully they will (At least some of them) get the call to go on their European trip and they will gel and score goals showing what they can really do.  That's all for today.  I'll leave ya with the following quote about perspective.

Humor is perhaps a sense of intellectual perspective: an awareness that some things are really important, others not; and that the two kinds are most oddly jumbled in everyday affairs.”

Christopher Morley





Could this be right?!

November 27, 2011

1. Scorpio (10/23-11/21)

   
   Today, monumental goals suddenly feel more attainable than ever! You are so close you can nearly taste it, and your ambition is telling you to throw caution to the wind and just go for it! Welcome any disruptions to your routine with open arms -- because they are going to bring you fresh ideas, new adventures and funny people that will invigorate you and take you that last mile. This is the beginning of a new phase for you, in which your outlook is going to be much more positive.

I LOVE it when I get a good horoscope like this one. Hopefully it will hold true and I will make some great choices and moves in the near future!  Don't have too much to share but this one was a must. Hope your last day of the Thanksgiving break is a great one!

good stuff

Had a great week with my #blessyourheart Region III 96 Girls ODP team. Playing wise they had a rough week but it was fun to get away and watch some soccer. Met some new people and am now REALLY happy with the choice I made to head out to Boca. Makes me miss playing and miss watching more soccer. I didn't get out enough to do that this fall considering I was home. I will make it a point to get bck to what I really love to do. Come hell or high water I will make sure that this year is a new beginning to do what I really WANT to do.

That is all...no doubt about it.

FRIENDS OR NOT?!

Had to make the crappy CHOICE to miss a dear friends wedding... had to go make some $$$ but it made me think again about my lovely life and the choices that one has to make along the way.

I am in Boca Raton, FL... i know be jealous, the weather has been pretty great... i'm with new soccer family doing one of hte thins i love most in this world... watching soccer. I am however a little saddened that I am not going to be celebrating the holiday with my family... I had to make a choice.  This time $$$$ won out over family and friends. I had a moment where I felt as though I was being selfish for choosing to make some money over choosing to be with my family. THEN, I realized that my family loves me no matter what I am doing or where I am. That leads me to look at those that I surround myself with, those that I call my FAMILY. 

You can choose your friends but you can't choose your family.

That's what the old saying says.  I have some people,(one person)  that I keep trying to call my friend who keep showing me that they are not only not a friend but not interested in being my friend. Why do I continue to try to be in contact? Is it me being an idiot b/c I am friends with all of those people who are or were a part of my life in that way? I don't get it but at least I am over it and that person. I have reached out the olive branch AGAIN to this person ... think (actually I KNOW) I will be okay either way. I have a new person who more than fills the void left my my absentee FRIEND. It's important to surround yourself with people that treat you with respect, communicate with you, and overall LOVE/LIKE you as a person People who want the best for you. People who make you a better version of you. The song quote below sums up how a friend should make you feel as well.

"Even if we never talk again after tonight, please remember that I am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me"
-Chasing Amy

At least for me an actual friend ALWAYS impacts your life whether for the good or bad... they always leave a mark and you cannot change that.

Sometimes it's weird I think... I'm 30 I should be grown up and have no problems... you think all sorts of crazy things like that when you are younger. Now I'm thinking I hope I can control all of these interesting things that life is throwing at me and do it with some sort of grace and class. Do it in a way that makes me feel great first off and in the best way possible for the best possible outcome. For the record, I realize that 30 is not the end of lifes growing pains. I'm growing (hopefully just spiritually and mentally, not physically) each day and look forward to what life has in store for me. If you know of a job that migt have in store for me, let me know. Going a bit crazy without something to do daily.

Anywho...it's 5am and I'm up for no reason but to write this I guess. I'm goin to try to get back to sleep before my 8:30 am breakfast call. 

I leave you with another quote on choices as I always do...

“Your life is the sum result of all the choices you make, both consciously and unconsciously. If you can control the process of choosing, you can take control of all aspects of your life. You can find the freedom that comes from being in charge of yourself.”

Robert F. Bennett

I'M 30! YEAH BUDDY!

It was my birthday week!!
Can you believe it I made it to 30!
Got a bit nostalgic for a moment, but all in all a great day and a great week. The only thing that could have made my birthday better was having my dad there. Since that was impossible... it was the best birthday.

My weekend was great... stayed at an AMAZING hotel with my guy and spent the weekend doing what I wanted to do.

PSU- sucks to be them

So I thought since EVERYONE and their mom is talking about the Penn St thing...I'd go ahead and talk about it too. After all it's the choices that the people involved have made that have affected (Adversely in most cases) their lives.

Choices are hard to make sometimes...

Choices are hard to make sometimes...
Where to go, what to wear, who to love, why to do this and why to do that...and so on and so forth.

Why is there so much pressure to make the right choices, have the right job, meet the right guy?  I am at a point in life where I am making choices that could (let's be real, that are going to) change my life forever.

LIFE/LOVE AND THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS.

We'll start with life:
Here's a quote to get me started on life choices - “No one else can ever make your choices for you. Your choices are yours alone. They are as much a part of you as every breath you will take, every moment of your life.”
Job Applications: Why are they so tedious? You have a resume for a reason but you never REALLY get to use it. Once you open the apps, you have to reinvent the wheel and re-copy all of your information even though it's all together already on your resume...  no frustrations here about that at all.
What about applying for those jobs that you feel like you are a shoe in for and then you get the automated email or confirmation that "we appreciate your interest, however we have decided to go in another direction" OR you don't hear back at all! Again, NOT frustrated at all with the happenings.

Love and the Pursuit of Happiness-
WOW what a year for all of the above... 
Life has definitely been a roller coaster ride this past 11 months ( I can't believe it's November already!). This time last year I was on vacation from the Disney Wonder and looking forward to all that she had to offer me. Little did I know that included a transfer or two, a great love in my life and a great loss in my life. I learned so so much about myself in my year and a bit working for the mouse. I learned that I enjoy being away... I miss my family when I am away...I am extremely emotional...I am ready to REALLY settle down and find Mr. Right and the great career that has eluded me for such a long time. Actually I can't say that it has eluded me, I think I have been running away from my life here in Dallas. Even when I was here in Dallas, I think I was running away. Now I am not particular about what city I work in but would like to find something that truly makes me happy.

Things will settle and I will be good. Nothing in life is ever promised but I think there are some things that might be I O Ued.  I made that word up but it works for me at this point, lol.

Anywho, life is full of choices as I'll continue to discuss some of these fun choices as I encounter them. LOVE YOU ALL AND HOPE THAT MY STORY WILL CONTINUE TO INSPIRE/ENTERTAIN YOU!

One last quote for the day!

 “Choosing to live your life by your own choice is the greatest freedom you will ever have.”