“I was a little excited but mostly blorft. "Blorft" is an adjective I just made up that means 'Completely overwhelmed but proceeding as if everything is fine and reacting to the stress with the torpor of a possum.' I have been blorft every day for the past seven years.”
― Tina Fey, Bossypants
SOOOOOO... THE START OF THE YEAR HAS BEEN A SPECIAL ONE!!
I have made a pact with myself to get healthier. I'm not calling it a new year's resolution because I am NOT going to stop walking or running on the path that I have chosen for this year. In the 30 days so far in this month I have worked out i think 20 of those. I have been challenged by a person I know at my Y who seems to think that I am not committed to working hard and that i don't realize the potential I have. I beg to differ. I am committed and I want to be challenged. I want to be better all around, look better, feel better, the whole 9 yards. I think if anything, I'm scared that I am going to want so much out of this change and my body will not be able to handle the constant pressure. All of those surgeries feel like they have taken a toll on me and my ability to work hard and play hard. I can't seem to lost this freakin' weight no matter what I do. I need someone to push me and keep me focused on what my end goal is. I would like to get back to that 165/170 LB. marker that I used to be at. I want to try yoga, I want to try kick boxing... I want to try a lot but haven't found the time or maybe I haven't made the time to work these things into my day to day schedule. I've started doing a daily challenge and it really has been great. It has made me think about what I am doing to continue on my journey and make it worth while.
Now more than ever do I realize that I will never be content with a sedentary life, that I will always be haunted by thoughts of a sun-drenched elsewhere.”
― Isabelle Eberhardt
In January I have been a number of places. I started the year off in Miami (Hollywood Beach to be precise) then I ended up in Indianapolis. It seems like i have been many more places but it reality only these 2. Miami was beautiful and the weather was amazing... too bad I didn't have a week to just sit, that would have been so so lovely. In Indianapolis the weather was cold and not as fun as Miami but it was a good time nonetheless. I was able to catch up with a bunch of Region III/ NTX people and it was a small bit of fun. Gotta love the peeps from that time in my life. I miss it, but things are good where I am and with the groups that I work with now.
What's the saying? The grass is always greener on the other side....
I think my grass is pretty green on the professional side. I'd like to see what the grass looks like on the personal side of the hill.
Happiness with me equals happiness for me.
Have a great night!
- ash
