Strong as an oak,pretty as a diamond.

"Life doesn't give you the people you want it gives you the people you need: to love you, to hate you, to make you, to break you & to make you the person you were meant to be."   

Aaaaaah the joys of life and living on the edge. That would be what working for Disney Cruise Line was like. Everyday a new place every week or two new faces, new adventures, etc.  I am really missingmy DCL time these days, even though this time last year I was very sad that I was going to be missing Christmas with my family. I've come to realize just how much DCL became a part of me and who I was.
Now I am on the hunt ...AGAIN. Lots of trials and tribulations in this job search. It's not easy and Lord knows I knew it wouldn't be, but I didn't expect this much trouble. Trying to stay positive in this trying time has been an ongoing battle in my head and my heart. I post quotes and ready positive stories to help keep me on the up and up.  I am starting to lose my mind a bit and get a bit antsy with the family. Irritable might also be used to describe my mood from time to time. I don't want to say that I am depressed b/c I really don't think that I am. I think that I am sad that I can't seem to get anyone to believe in me as an individual. Companies that I know I am capable of working for Delta Air Lines for example say I don't meet the basic requirements...I've unofficially worked for Delta since I could remember my name. I know I can work and I know I am a GREAT worker. It is just a matter of time until I can get an employer to believe in me.  This quote is something I am going to print out and post so that I have a basis for my positivity and focus.

 “When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure” - Peter Marshall

Here's to ending the year on a good note (which I will) and to starting off 2012 on the right foot (which I will). Be positive and stay focused.

Love and laughter to you all.
Ash

FRIENDSHIP

Just wanted to share how awesome my friends are!!

 A dear friend of mine dropped me this message in my facebook mailbox.
"You keep popping up in my head, so this: You're amazing. You are a rock when nobody else is. I know that can be tiring, but what an awesome thing to be so super fucking good at. Even when you don't have your shit together, people think you've got your shit together. That's how good you are at being strong. I'm inspired by that in you, whether you see it in yourself or not. You're a strong bitch and i love you much."

In response to that friend... I love you much too! This journey I'm on has been an amazing one... so many ups and downs, so many twists and turns. I've found myself looking back and not questioning what I've done, but RELIVING some of those choices that I have made. Another great friend told me
"You keep doin fun stuff. I always found it more fun to do stuff that to have stuff....". I think he couldn't be more right... to do what I love and maybe not have a huge bank account is and will continue to be a great part of my life.

  THANKS TO ALL MY FRIENDS ...you keep me going and make me laugh each and every day.